should we live with tears or side effects?

what do you think , is it better to just be depressed an cry or hide from the world, or should we actually take these antidepressants that have 20 side effects ? im gonna take my chances with the tears an just going off every once in a while an just hope noone pushes me to the point that i get my pistol an blow there freakin brains out , stupid people don't push or you will regret the outcome. an thats a fact not a threat. people that really know me know that i do meen what i say im not full of shit like alot of you other punks. point blank push the wrong button an that bomb will blow up in your face , so use a lil common sence an don't be stupid like the dana bi**h. i have good days an bad days hope to meet you on a good day :):):) an its very sad that i cant even meet a good girl to start a new life with cause my ex want let me have any peace so i can move on , an the thing is , is that i allready have met my dream girl an she is 31 years old an is the most beautiful sweetest brown haired girl i have ever seen but she don't really see me the way i see her , but i can hope an pray that this sweet lil exray tech girl does see thru my ruff exterior, an see the prince that will give her the unconditionally lifetime of love an suport that i think she is really looking for , i would love her till i die an give her the love that she will never find anywere else in this world , cause a real true love is very very very hard to find in this world. but i can't make her love me no more than i can change the color of the stars in the sky . so god help me get the one girl that i truly love with all my heart an soul. AMEN